speaking things into existence

I almost spoke my own death into existence.

I won’t go into details (still suffering and it kinda hurts to talk about it!! Really good, all love!!) BUT, I’ve developed a theory. And in true scientist style, I’ve tested it over and over again. I’m positive this is science.

So when you say things, like “I’ve never had that happen to me” and then you voraciously knock on a piece of wood, that’s kind of your way of speaking things into the universe and then stopping them from blossoming into existence.

For example, one time I told my friend after she crashed her bike, “wow! I’ve never crashed my bike before.”

And you can guess what happened the. Next. Day.

So anyways as I laid in bed, bandages on my knees and an ice pack over my black eye, I thought, “it’s because I didn’t knock on wood.”

Foolish, young me. Knocking on wood wouldn’t have changed a thing. It’s because I said it. Out loud.

I. Spoke. It. Into. Existence.

Now that I’m older, I look back and think about all the things I said that I brought into existence.

“I hate going to school,” was a popular phrase of mine. I didn’t actually hate going to school but I said it because.....I honestly don’t know. I said it. And I started to hate school.

“I’ll never be able to do this.” And I never did.

“I’m ugly” and I started to think I was ugly.

“I never failed a test before.” Sorry, mom.

And the only reason I learned how to drive standard was because I needed to get to school and it was hurting my ego to take the bus. I spent countless hours yelling at my mom, "I'm never going to be able to do it!" Again, sorry. But I needed to flex. That’s all.

You get the point. I’m going to quit roasting myself. 

So anyways, the day that I almost spoke my death into existence is when it all became very clear to me. My words have POWER.

So, like any superhero, I decided to start using my power for good. Instead of saying things like, “I’m sorry for being late,” which carried a negative tone, I started saying things like “thanks for waiting for me.” Or instead of saying “I’m having the worst day,” I said, “I’m going to make tomorrow the best day ever.”

And my favourite, the one time I spoke a sale at the mall into fruition and BAM! I spent all my money but hey, I made it happen!!

It changed my life.

Because I said it would.

So I made plans for the future. In the morning I get up and say “I’m going to live in a big house with a pool” and “I’m gonna have so many dogs” and “I’m gonna drive a G-wagon” and “Justin Bieber will perform at my 20th birthday” and I speak those things into the universe just so the universe knows. In case she’s listening. (Which, if she is, hi baby!!!!!)

And I have little goals, too. “I’m going to be safe today on my drive to school,” “I’m going to ace my marketing quiz,” “I’m not going to get called into work tonight at midnight,” “I’m only going to cry about not being able to buy new Levi’s once today,” things like that.

And now that I realized my words have power and effects on my own life, how do my words affect others?

So I decided I’m going to try, in the best way I know how, to make people happy.

I gave people compliments. Real compliments. Instead of saying “gorgeous!” With a heart eyes emoji, I started saying “your smile is radiant!” Or instead of saying “I love this picture,” I said, “you take amazing photos!”

Obviously I can’t speak for others, but if I received compliments like that, and I do, it makes my whole day. And I go home and I look at the picture (or whatever it is) over and over and over again and think “I didn’t know she thought my smile was radiant!”

And I hoped for them. People told me about their worries and their stress and their problems and I said to them that I hope they get better. And I told them to let the universe know they existed.

Your words can literally change someone’s entire perception of themselves or perspective on something.

Next time you’re thinking something negative, like the test you just failed or maybe the overwhelming amount of stuff you have to do this week, instead of saying “this is the worst. I can’t do this,” say “I’ve come through so much worse. I’m so strong. I’m gonna pull through.”

This is not to say there won’t be bad days. Because there will be. Lots of them. And sometimes the universe is busy listening to someone else’s story. But remind yourself on those days of the little things, like a comfy bed and your favourite show on Netflix, and try again tomorrow.

The point is, if you’re gonna say anything, let it be positive. If you’re gonna put anything into the universe, let it be good. If you’re gonna be any kind of person, let it be happy.

Whatever you believe in, the universe, or God, or whatever, speak to them. Say your piece OUT LOUD! They’re listening! And if you don’t get what you asked for, that just wasn’t in the plan for you. Something else will come.

Oh, and shoutout to the universe for letting me stick around a little longer, she knew I had lots left to do.